Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Whats with me???? :)

I've taken loadsa time to get used to my life in a new environment... i remember having a great time making new friends and gettin used to places very quickly when i was very young...as time passes.... we tend to get so attached to some things in life... like our bike... our fav house... best of friends... that d sudden "shift" to another place can get tough...

We tend to compare places...people... lives...perspectives...EVERYTHING... i came into a new country expecting my life to be easy.. expecting it to me like Chennai days.. when i learnt that i would be experiencing very differerent things here.... i was certainly taken aback...

Surprisingly it has taken me 38 days of college to realise that life will remain like this... tough in some ways... challenging in some ways... but i suddenly realised today that i am going to enjoy every BIT of it... i feel all positive again... i feel like the old me again.. after a long time... i celebrated today... jus by myself...smiled.. danced the dance of joy... started playing loud n peppy music... enjoyed the view... realised that i adore my classmates... and worked a lil hard :)

I am ALAS getting used to life here...!!!

yay! yay! yay! yay!

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

FlAsHbAcK

Sometimes i wish i was not such a complex person :)... i was reading a friend's blog recently...and realised how important it is to "live" every moment... this is certainly not a phrase i picked up from some melodramatic hindi movie.... its something i feel NOW more than ever...

I lead a fairly less complicated life... i need to slog for the next 2 years. period. there are no two ways about it.. this country couldn be better.. wonderful people... nice beautiful country... living with people who mean a lot in a person;s life.. family of course.... BUT... i still wish to go back into the past... jsust re live some moments... meet again..some unforgettable people.. do some things differently... handle some relationships differently... there is SO MUCH i want to do that i feel like i have left half complete...

I can help but get emotional about it now... because here i am... 20 years of age.. feeling like some adult caught in the mishmash of life... hoping to break free...

I want to turn back time...do some things diferently...spend more time with the people back home in india who mean d world to me.. and be back here... with the satisfaction of having done the best i could :)

for now.. i will re live some moments of my life.. in my mind...